Why can't this just be easy?

I can't do this anymore
I don't know what for.
Why can't this just be easy?
Life should be kind of cheesy.
I'm really trying to forget,
but seems like I only get upset.
Why won't this feeling go away?
I'm sure it wasn't meant to stay.
Why do I miss you so much?
I can still feel your gentle touch.
I need to keep my head up high
or else I might just start to cry.
In my head I know this was best
but my heart won't leave you to rest.
Right now I just need a shoulder,
but my life keeps getting colder.
I have friends all around
but they just don't seem to count.
I really try to seem happy
but deep inside I feel really crappy.
I just want my life back on track
just one reason to never look back.
I really don't enjoy being sad,
I truly hate feeling this bad.
Where exactly did my life go wrong?
When is it my time for a happy song?